How To Decrease Shame After A Pregnancy Loss

What's your experience like, is it hard to find community? It takes courage and vulnerability to foster connections that support our growth and healing, especially when we're struggling.

As we welcome November, I'm reflecting on October and the advocacy and awareness highlighted through the Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month campaigns on social media. I was reminded by Sara*, a member of my infertility group, how much work there still is to do. Sara's experienced multiple pregnancy losses over recent years and yet never heard of this awareness campaign. How about you?

Sara joined the group feeling emotionally isolated from her large and loving family. As the parent of a toddler, there were a lot of questions about baby number 2’s arrival. She shared little with family about her recurrent miscarriages and secondary infertility and came to loathe family events. The barrage of questions that would inevitably come, and the feelings of shame were too much. Isolation was easier.  
 
Thankfully, someone pointed Sara to my group. She loved hearing from other group members who faced similar dilemmas, and similar grief. She perked up when I shared about the Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness campaign early in the month. We discussed the different hashtags to explore, and the Wave of Light ceremony on October 15th, where people light candles in honor of their babies who have died.

Earlier this week we met for our final group session. Sara beamed as she shared about her disclosure on social media. Inspired by the online community around #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth and the connections she made in group, Sara shared publicly for the first time about her journey.  

She was blown away by the thoughtful comments, love, and compassion she received from her community. When she attended a family event over the weekend, no one asked her about baby number 2. Was it a coincidence? She wasn’t sure, but she felt inspired by the response to her vulnerability and encouraged to keep talking with those she loved. 

I share Sara’s experience for a few reasons. To highlight:

1- Campaigns like Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month are so important!

They help create community for people who are feeling isolated. They decrease shame and inspire people, like Sara, to break their silence and gain needed support to weather difficult times. Campaigns like this also help to educate our community so we can be more empathetic towards one another.

2- Your voice matters.

Letting people in takes courage and vulnerability.  Letting people know your pain means they can offer you support. Does sharing on social media feel like too much? Consider what it would be like to open up to someone you trust. What might you gain in return?

3- Therapy groups are healing.

Not only do groups decrease isolation, but connecting with others experiencing similar struggles has the power to reduce shame. After all, empathy is the antidote to shame. 

I know it can feel scary to step out of your comfort zone. While social media can be a tough place, when you look in the right places there are many supportive communities waiting. To join a group, to speak up, to ask for help— it takes courage. And yet, taking risks, like Sara, is what brings us out of isolation and closer to one another. 

If you're interested in joining a group here in San Diego, or virtually throughout California, or would like to explore individual support along your reproductive journey, don’t hesitate to reach out.

6-Week Mind-Body Infertility Support Group Starting

If you've been following along for any length of time, you know that I'm passionate about helping women who are experiencing infertility. I understand how lonely, scary and isolating this path can be.

In addition to the individual infertility counseling I provide to women in my private practice here in San Diego, I facilitate support groups. These groups introduce new coping strategies and offer women a place to share, connect and gain support from other women who are going through the same thing. 

This may not be you, but it's someone you know- your sister, your cousin, your friend. I know because of just how common infertility is that we're talking about someone you know, perhaps someone you care for deeply. Please consider sharing this with her.  

Does this sound like you, or someone you care about?

• "I'm so overwhelmed with the process of trying to have a baby; I never thought it would be this hard".

• "I feel so alone in this process; no one I know has struggled to have a baby"! 

• "I'm not really sure what to do anymore. The anticipation and the waiting/trying to conceive are stressing me out so much".

• "I'm dreading this visit home and having to hear one more person ask me when we're going to have a baby". 

• "I feel so guilty for how I feel when I see pregnant women, or baby announcements; is this normal?"

Maybe you/they haven't actually said these words, but the feelings are there. If it's someone you care about, perhaps you've noticed their withdrawal, their worry and you're concerned about them.

Gaining support from others and developing new coping skills can help: 

• Reduce anxiety, stress and/or overwhelm 

• Lessen feelings of isolation, loneliness or depression

• Improve communication and relationships with important people in your life

My next Infertility Support Group starts on October 9th and is designed for women who are experiencing primary or secondary infertility. Throughout the group we'll explore issues related to infertility, including the impact on identity, self-esteem, sexuality and relationships. Participants have the opportunity to learn and practice relaxation and other mind-body coping skills each week. While we can't change the stressors you experience each day, you can learn to manage your response to allow you to live more comfortably and engage with life more fully. 

You can learn more about the group and schedule an intake through this link. If you have any questions, you can email me or sign up for a free consultation.

You also might find this blog post helpful when considering the benefits of a support group. 

Becoming More Mindful: Where to Start?

Photo by Tanushree Khanna on Unsplash

We live in a fast-paced society where it feels like there's rarely (dare I say never) enough time. I know I'm not alone in this feeling; I hear about it daily from friends and family, and of course the clients I counsel in my practice. The overwhelm is folded into the lives of my clients who are struggling to conceive, those grieving, the women who are adjusting to the reality of motherhood, the men who feel a ridiculous amount of pressure to provide and succeed financially. Sometimes the greatest stressors come from within, our attempts to be the best partner/parent/daughter/brother/insert role.

Mindfulness has been a buzz word for the past decade or so and shows no sign of leaving center stage of the $3.7 trillion global wellness market (Reference). And there's good reason-- midnfulness is touted as the antidote for aging, perfectionism, anxiety, depression. The list goes on. But for those unfamiliar with mindfulness, learning what it is and what it isn't, and figuring out how to bring it into your life can cause more of those feelings of overwhelm we're trying to conquer. After all, won't adding something else to your to do list make you even busier?

That feeling of being busy and rushing all the time, there's a choice in that. At least that's what the gurus of mindfulness tell us. With a mindful approach, we get to decide how we interact with the world around us. Mindfulness helps us to slow down and  to pay attention to our thoughts, behaviors and reactions. Mindfulness allows us to respond rather than react.

How to Be More Mindful

So how do we bring mindfulness into our daily lives? Like all things we strive towards, we must develop a mindfulness practice to reap the rewards. We must schedule a time, then stop what we're doing, and sit. Starting with a guided meditation can often be a helpful place to begin for those who have no prior experience with mindfulness. Below is a short 5-minute guided mindfulness exercise. It's one that I introduce to clients in my practice and in my infertility support groups: 5 Senses Mindfulness Exercise. I didn't write it myself, but it's my recording.

I like this exercise because it allows us to recognize the many ways we can be mindful in our own bodies each and every day. By attuning to the senses we can invite ourselves to stay in the present moment when we're eating, resting, gazing, walking, listening-- grounding ourselves wherever we may be, whenever we need it. 
 

The Wandering Mind

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I like to remind my clients that there's no right and wrong with mindfulness; it's simply about cultivating awareness. Many people incorrectly believe they're "doing it wrong" because their mind wanders. This is normal as our minds are made to think. The practice of mindfulness is to simply guide your attention back to whatever it is you are doing-- breathing, pushing a grocery cart, taking a shower. Yes, each of these activities can be done mindfully. But let's start with sitting.

So find yourself a quiet place to begin. Push the button below when you're ready. You will need to download the link in order to play it on iTunes. I hope this experience allows you to slow down, if even for just 5 minutes

Whether you're a busy parent or longing to be one, mindfulness is an invaluable tool to help cope with the stressors of daily living. If you’re looking for a therapist in the San Diego area, I’m happy to help. Feel free to reach out by phone or email and we can talk about ways you might benefit from counseling. 

Four Reasons to Join An (In)fertility Group

In honor of National Infertility Awareness Week, I’m encouraging anyone who’s struggling with infertility to speak up and get the support they need. If you know someone who’s could benefit, please consider sharing this article; you may not know how to help them, but pointing them to resources and letting them know you want to help will be appreciated.

Infertility is often a lonely and isolating time. It’s unexpected, often coming from out of the blue. But it doesn’t have to be like this. There are groups around that can help you deal with the predictable emotional roller coaster of feeling scared, worried, disappointed and sad. 

You may have considered looking for a group. You may have even located one, in your neighborhood, city or even online, but something has gotten in your way of joining. Hopefully reading this article will encourage you to think about the value of joining an infertility group.

Acknowledging the issue of infertility is often the biggest barrier to seeking help. The word itself may at first be scary, And then there's the fear and shame, which help maintain the loneliness and isolation so many experience. We often think we should be able to handle whatever life throws at us alone. But that's simply unrealistic. We are social beings and rely on others for many reasons. 

You may feel uneasy about sharing your dilemma with others. You may be fearful of hearing others’ stories. But here are four reasons why I hope you will consider joining an infertility support group. The old adage, "Joy shared, twice the gain, sorrow shared, half the pain,” rings true for me every time: 

1. EXPAND YOUR COMMUNITY

Infertility is often a lonely and isolating time. Whether you join a group expressly for women, or one for couples, you can expect to meet others who are in a similar situation and can relate to many of the struggles you're facing. Living in isolation can leave us feeling like we're the only ones who feel a certain way. Joining a group helps to validate common worries and emotions that individuals and couples face who are experiencing infertility.
 

2. LEARN COPING SKILLS

Infertility often goes hand in hand with depression and anxiety. Learning how to manage difficult emotions and life challenges associated with your infertility diagnosis is often another benefit to joining a group. Infertility is a crisis and a reproductive trauma, yet most people focus exclusively on medical interventions to reach their goal of having a baby. The emotional impact of infertility is often neglected until the distress is greatly impacting their day-to-day life and relationships.

So what if I told you that learning new tools could help decrease your symptoms of depression and anxiety like stress, worry, sadness, grief and loss? Did you know that deceasing these feelings could have a positive impact on your fertility? Many professionally led groups teach participants a combination of Cognitive Behavior Therapy and Mindfulness skills. Here’s how these skills can help you: 

• Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT), an evidence based treatment for both depression and anxiety, is based on the understanding that our thoughts influence our emotions, but that our thoughts aren't always accurate. CBT teaches us how to challenge our thoughts to make them more realistic. 

• While Mindfulness has been a big buzz word for the past 5-10 years, many are still confused with the objective. Being mindful is about paying attention, slowing down and becoming aware and noticing your thoughts. By slowing ourselves down  on a regular basis we become skilled at approaching difficult moments in a more thoughtful intentional way. Simply slowing down and mindfully approaching stressful situations can have an important ripple effect benefit you in a multitude of ways.
   

3. LEARN FROM OTHERS

It is said, "Knowledge is Power." The treatment of infertility is often diverse and complex. Educating yourself as to the wide variety of treatment approaches and options is important. Joining a group may open your eyes to new options and opportunities.
 

4. FINANCIAL SAVINGS

It's no surprise that infertility treatments can be costly. You're doing everything you can to have a baby and it adds up: consultations with reproductive endocrinologists, acupuncture treatment, appointments with a naturopath, testing, procedures to rule out contributing health issues... And this is all before any costs of medications or other assisted reproductive technology are accounted for.

So how does joining a group save you money, you're wondering? Research shows that women struggling with infertility for 2-3 years have double the rate of depression than their peers without fertility complications (Domar, Broom et al 1992). The good news is that decreasing depression has proven to increase rates of conception by 50%. Joining a group can provide you with new skills to help you to cope with difficult emotions and challenges in relationships that often accompany infertility.

A group isn't necessarily a cure-all, but it's more cost-effective than ongoing individual therapy. By bolstering your support system and learning new coping strategies you may improve your mood and decrease the likelihood of needing an individual therapist as you proceed on your journey with infertility. What do you think, could a fertility group be right for you?

If you’re thinking that a group might be for you and you’re in the San Diego area, you can learn more about the groups I run here. I meet with all new group members before our first group to learn more about you and to make sure it’s the right fit. Give me a call if you'd like to learn more. If you’re outside of San Diego, you can find local fertility support groups through Resolve, the National Infertility Association, and Psychology Today.

Infertility Support Group

The journey through infertility can be lonely and isolating. Maybe you've lost touch with some of your friends or they just don't understand what you're going through. Even family, while well-meaning, often don't get it. 

The anxiety and stress can feel overwhelming. You're not sure what your next step is and how to navigate this stage of your life- this stage you never imagined having to go through in the first place. Maybe you worry you're too depressed to be around a group of other women. But remember- these women GET it! 

Join me, Rachel Rabinor, Licensed Clinical Social Worker and Dr. Elizabeth Winter, Licensed Naturopathic Doctor and Midwife for this 6-Week Mind/Body Infertility Support Group. 

Share as much or as little as you like. Listen to others. Feel the power of community. Reach out for support during this challenging time in your life and know you are not alone.

Dates: 
February 21 + 28
March 7, 14, 21 + 28

Cost: 
$275 ($225 before February 1, 2017)

Throughout the six weeks we'll explore issues related to fertility, including the impact on identity, self-esteem, sexuality and relationships. You'll have the opportunity to learn and practice relaxation and other mind/body coping skills each week. While we can't change the stressors you experience each day, we can help you learn to manage your response to allow you to live more comfortably and engage with life more fully. 

Women experiencing both primary and secondary infertility are welcome.

Registration required.